Do you ever make up stories in your mind while walking or buying groceries of that little kiss...
That some days you feel like you need a little kiss from someone who you find so attractive and so sexy that you feel you are being unfaithful just because you thought of it?...
Are we aloud to be free to fantasize with some hunk than the one you married ten years ago. Someone who might actually think that farting in front of you is disrespectful. That taking a dump with the door open is not a casual thing, that picking his nose and making balls out of his buggers is NOT ok... especially when you know you will be vacuuming them the next day?
These little things of course happen when you have spent enough time with someone. Privacy or space doesn't mean anything anymore. Still would you date someone that on his first date farted and then laughed about it? Probably not.
What is it about couples and the lack of respect when it comes sharing a space? Do we mind? Do they even think that we mind? I am not sure what goes through that head when he does these things and ... yes he just farted while I sat right next to him watching our favorite TV show.
What is it about the lack of romance and excitement in the bedroom in the day to day life?
I have been thinking that I have completely been forgotten in the midst of having babies, raising them, taking care of the household, being a personal assistant, making sure everyone is happy, cooking , cleaning, fighting about ...
the surprise bath that my daughter gets every night since she was born five years ago, running errands ( thank god for bank apps and their quick deposit... hurray for this!) going to the park etc etc etc. I have been forgotten, I feel I am just the assistant now. Do this, do that, not even a thank you anymore! And then to top it off being belittled by getting asked " what did you do all all day"?
So yes... I dream sometimes that one day brad pitt will run into me at the local pharmacy or park or bank and not say anything but just give me a kiss and tell me how much he has been thinking of me. I do! Is this wrong of me?
I am free to think and fantasize about anything I want. The dreams I vividly have of Brad Pitt kissing me all over are very sexy and they do make me very happy in my sleep. I sometimes think what is it that I can do to get the romance back. The fun back. The things he did when he was trying to get me in the sack the first time, and the second and the third. The places and things we did when we had no kids and he was still thinking how he could enamour me so I would marry him and have his kids. What is it that couples lack these days? Is it trust?
Is the trust you have with your partner tearing you apart? Is the fact that you trust each other so much that you think that you would never leave him because of a little nose picking or farting under the sheets? I hate the farting under the sheets and the nose picking drives me up the wall! Yes the trust is the problem.
No I would not leave him for such idiosyncrasies.
There is no marriage without trust though. So how do you divide the trust into two different things?
Lets call them Trust/respect and trust/marriage
If I could just have him understand that all I want is a little kiss...
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